low

silence

help me to forget, gimme strength to move on, let me be free.

It's in the ABC of growing up

It's been a morbid 9 days. I've been on an emotional roller coaster and had emotional outbursts. I don't know how i am going to do it, I don't know what is going to happen but I am going to try and make it turn out okay. Thanks for all the listening ears. i feel bad that I keep going on about it.

Every once in a while I reach this "low point". Where everything feels like crap, I am damn messed up and basically life just screws me over. Then I realise that I have stuffed up, big time. Sighs. I admit that I had my shortcomings and that I could have handled things in a better way but it always takes two..

I took a stumble and fell to the bottom of a well. I tried hard to climb but I slipped and wasn't able to be receptive to that patient, loving arm that was trying to reach out to me. In the end, that arm was not able to hold itself anymore and had to stop reaching out.

So that's the way the story ends.




'Cause none of us were angels And you know I love you, yeah

secondhand serenade

escape

i have never ever felt this low before. a sense of loss, hopelessness. everything is meaningless to me now. all i want to do is escape. escape from myself, from all the crap that is happening.

i know its stupid but its at this low point when stupid thoughts fill my head. stupid, nonsensical ideas that you know you would not ordinarily think of. i think i now know why people do stupid things. cos it is such a tempting prospect.